Lyme n R.M.S.F. Warrior: 2014

Wednesday, October 29, 2014

ONE PISSED PARENT

These days have all blurred together like an spoiled milk. the things that are happening in our lives with children are outright devastating. You have already found smokes hidden before that were stolen. Found smokes stolen and transported to our house with lighter. And now you innocently get what was given to you in this childs room and again find more things. not smokes. NO! but meds that have been gone for over 3 years in plain sight when they weren't their before. and more matches hidden again in a box like last time. I truly dont want to clean that house anymore in fear of what I might find next. Such anger this child holds towards her mother in all reality is nonsense. Being a parent isn't easy and to be hated by the children is normal. but to blame them for if you dont get better and get worse is an outrage. How is a parent suppose to win when they are always tossed under the moving train? For the child to make the decisions on what can and can not be discussed on visits is leaving me in aw. They have no clue this child of what I have found today and there mother hasnt said anything to me yet on what she or I should do. I just want to yank her up and do something I know will be wrong for the both of us. I cry for both the parents on how devious she is and believes she has done nothing wrong. So pissed off for words.

Friday, October 3, 2014

All AND NOTHING

Blank.Bare.Empty.Clossed-Off
Dark.Cold.
Caged. No Doors closed. All Windows Open.
No Way Out.
Half Way In the Grave.
And Half way Out Of It.
Tired. Worn. Beaten.
Exhausted. Depressed.
Angry. In Aw. Frustrated.
Fed-Up. Stressed
FOUR WALLS-- Bare, Blank, Empty.
FREEDOM-- Closed- Off. Outlook(DARK)
ENERGY-- Cold. Caged
HOUSE-- No Outlet. No in or out(TRAPPED)
MIND-- Half In And Half Out Of The Grave
BODY-- Tired. Worn. Beaten
FEELINGS.. Angry. In Aw Frustrated
I AM -- Stressed And FED-UP
Written By Michelle Martin